Moving in a different direction

I have been though hell and back but nothing compares to what I am feeling right now. I was recently in a situation that resulted in a altercation seems like it was based on things. Things that are superficial instead of addressing the real situation at hand. As I reflect on things it will never be the same. The more you listen to other people and choose to be around other people you often forget about the one you are supposed to be with. What they like, what they eat and a communication barrier exists. I have come to the point that I accept the fact that certain things you cant get rid of and I was told by his own father that you can't make a grown man do anything. this is the 3rd time I was told this by him out of a 8 year period. So this is something I have to live...excuse me something I choose not to live with. I have tried over and over to figure things out but it is not working, then something funny happened. TBN was on and I was doing my homework like 1 am in the morning because I am pretty much afraid to fall asleep...but some one said on the TV "Stopped trying to figure things out, that can not be explained and just give it to God" that made me immediately stop what I was doing and listen...then he said it again and that is when I laughed.

Smooches!